|nine eggs a day..
||[Nov. 6th, 2009|08:23 am]
Begin with the end in mind.
Day two of eating 1,200 calories & walkng 45 for minutes. The walking is great..but the not eating is driving me nuts.
Like, eating 400 calories a meal is difficult.
So I think I'll stick to three eggs & water.
My doctor is telling me that if I do as she says I'll lose 12 pounds in six months.
Oh back up, rewind!
I can't get the weight loss surgery just yet. I need to be on a six month superived diet.
Okay.. Back to what I was saying.
That totally bummed me out..cause its like, so I'm cutting back calories & walking.
She's expecting me to lose two pounds a month.
I lost ten pounds in a week & I only walked for 30 minutes a day & only cutting down how much I eat.
Teh fuck. Idk. She's the doctor right?
I want this so bad, so I'll do it.
& she tells me "maybe you'll be motivated & won't need the surgery."
Uhm, look..if I lose twelve pounds in SIX months, I won't be motivated at all and where will that leave me? Still overweight ya dumb broad. Fuck that.
She wasn't sympathetic at all.
Its not that I'm lazy, I mean I am haha..its just that I've done one diet after another, slim fast & such. The weight comes off.. BUT there's no visable difference.
I could weigh 500 pounds, as long as I look like I weigh 150. I just want to LOOK good.
I hate going out in public. I hate feeling like everyone is staring at me.
Justin has a mandatory platoon thing this sunday & he doesn't want me to go if I don't want to & cause he knows I'll get mouthy with Cardeanas & Fowler..
But I don't wanna go cause I've heard the fat comments already, I don't wanna do it again.
It just looks good on him that I support him. Which I do, I just don't wanna be the fat girl ><. Ugh.
I'll do your fucking diet Jarl, but I think I know my body better than you.
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